Jealousy

Trying the best
Being all you can be
Still followed by that horrible mask of Jealousy

It haunts me and discourages me
Telling me to give up
Taunting me
Wanting me to just me up

Trying the hardest
Being the best me
Working harder everyday for my family

Still followed by that horrible mask of Jealousy

Transformation

Together we are
Together we shall me
A new life transformed
Transforming you
Transforming me

A family in the making
The world at large
Prepared for taking
Hunger, Starved

Ready for an Adventure
Nervous for life
Transforming into father and husband
Transforming into mother and wife

Loving twice

Love can exist in two different places
You took it
Or did i give it away when you left
Love goes on even when your not around

It exists in the memories that always seem to be found
It exists when i lie next to him
No other place i would rather be
And yet you are the place i would rather be

Love still exists in two different places
I can't seem to take it back from you
Yet i always seem to give it to him
A little bit of happiness mixed with the sweetest sin

And yet you still exist

Mixed Up

It was my decision
Right down to the wedding day
It was my heart that told me i would be ok
It was my head that told me i was better off
It was my body that said you werent enough

So i stand here all dressed in white
Nervous about not being able to leave you out of my new life
I go on having someone elses child
Still thinking it should be yours all the while

It was my decision
Right down to the goodbye
It was my heart that told me not to cry
It was my head that told to let you go
It was my body that choose not to let the pain show

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If what i found is real then how come i can't deal
With the thought of losing you
If real love is what i sought and i feel that's what i got
How come i can't seem to shake you
Turning back the hands of time is always impossible when i have you on my mind

If what i have makes me happy why can't i just let you and i be?
Memories sting me like a motorist riding in the rain
If am in love then how come i still feel so much pain?

You can call me confused, miserable and mislead
But none of those words seem to get you out of my head
I can say it over and over
Convince myself that i am fine

But while am lying with him i can't take you off my mind

Passive aggressive

I feel i need to get this out
This emotion consuming me

Just need to get up and shout
Be what and who am supposed to be

Quiet as a mouse is no longer my personality

Go-getter
Must- haver
Now describes me

If i don't do this procrastation will get the best of me
Then i will never be able to see what i can truly be

So i kick and i scream and i knock that door down
And you know what i say:
Look out world ITS MY TIME NOW!

Doubting

Pieces of my heart floating to you
You captured me and now
I don't know what to do

To love or be love? Infamous line by the great
Wish i knew i had what it takes
Doubting myself when the vision is so clear

Yet i do not see what is so near
And so i guess
And assume
And wait for time to pass

Hopefully at the end of it all
Perhaps you will be mine at last