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Hi blog long time no see just thought i would come in and add a little something...

If what i found is real then how come i can't deal
With the thought of losing you
If real love is what i sought and i feel that's what i got
How come i can't seem to shake you
Turning back the hands of time is always impossible when i have you on my mind

If what i have makes me happy why can't i just let you and i be?
Memories sting me like a motorist riding in the rain
If am in love then how come i still feel so much pain?

You can call me confused, miserable and mislead
But none of those words seem to get you out of my head
I can say it over and over
Convince myself that i am fine

But while am lying with him i can't take you off my mind

Passive aggressive

I feel i need to get this out
This emotion consuming me

Just need to get up and shout
Be what and who am supposed to be

Quiet as a mouse is no longer my personality

Go-getter
Must- haver
Now describes me

If i don't do this procrastation will get the best of me
Then i will never be able to see what i can truly be

So i kick and i scream and i knock that door down
And you know what i say:
Look out world ITS MY TIME NOW!

Doubting

Pieces of my heart floating to you
You captured me and now
I don't know what to do

To love or be love? Infamous line by the great
Wish i knew i had what it takes
Doubting myself when the vision is so clear

Yet i do not see what is so near
And so i guess
And assume
And wait for time to pass

Hopefully at the end of it all
Perhaps you will be mine at last

COnfused

Hi blog long time no see well anyways here goes...

Have you ever been sitting wondering
Waiting
Pondering
On whats going to be the next best thing
Big thing
To Happen?

Guessing, wishing, floating on a dream
Something i seem want
But do i really understand what i want
What i need

Complicated, frustrated just being a woman at best
Never ceasing to be mis understood
I guess

Doting on a future that don't seem to dote me
Just waiting
Wondering
Whats going to be the next thing

Phases

Yes.... were in that infatuation phase
The "I can't keep my hands off of you" phase
And when i wake up i want to call you phase

Where I love you's follow the end of every phone call
And me thinking about you is like my everything and all

I can't wait to get more in that "I love you" phase
Where the feelings get more deep and sincere
Where every morning i wake up i want you there

Phase where words do not need to be spoken
The eyes says it all
Where you are scared to let me down
Scared to fall

But mistakes have to made
Pain to know joy
Then science would make sense
When girl meets boy

Phase where mortgage meets kids,
Meets me
Meets you and a dog

Phase where "I do" will mean everything and my world
With you holding it all

Dreamer

Chasing and dreaming
Wondering what to be
Because law school just wasn't for me

Lost in translation
Blinded by hope
Wishing and still dreaming
Wanting it the most

JOURNALIST is what i call me
JOURNALIST is what i want to be
But sometimes JOURNALIST strays so far from me

Distant but yet so close
Like i said i want it the most

Waiting patiently for the recession to end
Not wanting to be stuck in the newspaper pen

So until i develop my own unique field
I guess am just another girl....chasing a dream

Habit

I try to stop breathing but its a habit that's hard to break
Like me talking to you and you talking to me
Like me moving on and leaving you in the past and you always being there
Constantly

Like biting my nails, even though i want to stop
I can't
The taste of hard, flesh tone material growing out of my fingers fascinates me
Like your taste fascinates my senses, addicts me, wanting me not to stop

Bad habits are everywhere like smoking
Well, i don't smoke but sometimes i think your the equivalent to any addiction
Don't get me wrong i like breathing and biting my nails
But like the two i can't stop
Loving you